Monday, Monday

Today, I had a pretty remarkable experience I'd like to share.

Before I went to work today, I was not feeling well emotionally. Had I had even the slightest sign of a headache or stomachache, I would have gladly called in sick. I felt very terrified of going to work. I couldn't figure out why I was so upset and worried about work. I guess kept thinking people were out to get me and I kept imagining the constant criticisms I would receive while at work. I did not feel safe, and I was almost in tears by the time I got in the car to drive to work.

I realized I had been so nervous, I had forgotten to eat, so on the way to work, I stopped at Hogi Yogi, thinking that MAYBE I could keep down some ice cream. While pulling in to the parking lot, I said a very small, humble prayer, asking for the strength to get through the day, for the wisdom to know what to say to my customers, and for help in general, since I knew I could not get through the day by myself.

On my first call, I noticed my voice sounded much braver and much more confident than I actually felt. I remembered things about one of the new programs the company is launching, and I had forgotten to read through the manual before going in today. I was able to more effectively explain policies to customers who were not familiar with them, and I took little notice of the hostility some customers had toward me after enforcing these policies. The Lord answered my prayer, and provided me with much more than I had even asked for to begin with. Based on how I was feeling before work, there was no way I could have gotten through the day without having a complete meltdown. I just wanted to get through the day and go home, but the Lord gave me enough resources to not only get through the day, he helped me enjoy the day. Instead of worrying about the customers who were upset with me, I was able to gladly accept the gratitude from the individuals I had actually helped. For example, I walked a woman through placing an order online. This sweet lady didn't even know how to type the web address into the address bar, but learned quickly and was a pleasure to talk to. After she successfully placed her first online order, she thanked me so wholeheartedly that I spent the next half hour just smiling and happy. This was far beyond anything I had asked the Lord for or even expected. I'm very thankful He was watching out for me and made my day more than just bearable, even though that is what I asked for.